Shannon's Story

Hi Friends I am Shannon and a grateful alcoholic
Thank you Paul, sorry I was a bit taken back, waiting for your share first. I am grateful to this aaonline room for my sobriety
I remember coming in beat up, low self esteem, no self worth, no self love...I hated who I had become I would look in the mirror and not recognize the girl looking back at me
wondering how it ever got to this
I went to an aa site and I answered the questions that they had postedI had fear of getting sober so young
Alcohol was my drug, it made me feel prettier, it made me feel more confident, it made me have all the things I was missing in life or so I thoughtThe thought of never touching another drop killed me, it scared the living day lights out of me. I couldn't imagine birthdays without it, Christmas without it, any day without it...I always had an excuse, a celebration, a bad day: to pick up that drink
I was scared, I had so much fear of what people would think of me if they knew what a horrible person I was I couldn't find the power to walk in to a face to face meeting
So I came here And you people loved me enough, helped me enough...to get me through one more day that is all I had, one day: and after each day, one more day and another day, made the days add up and made staying sober easier
I am not saying that my life is a breeze right now
I am not saying I don't have problems still
: but what I am saying, even my worst day is better than the days that I was a drunk
I don't want to go back there again but I will never say, that I won't
because I have to keep it fresh in my mind that I am an alcoholic
I am NOT recovered
I can not pick up one drink
I am truly grateful for everyone in this room
because you people made it possible to be typing here today, celebrating three years of recovery, Sobriety is a wonderful thing
and it does come, and it does get better, if you are willing to work it for it, And I will say: something someone shared with me saved my butt many times and that saying still runs fresh in my mind and it is this
JUST FOR TODAY I WILL NOT DRINK
thank you for letting me share, thank you for my sobriety, and thank you for your friendship

ga