Robyn's Story

Hi my name is Robyn, alcoholic, sober today thanks to Fellowship of AA and my HP and I'm glad to be here Grew up in family who didn't drink, made no difference when I picked it up I loved the stuff, drank for many years, ended up living in Australia where everyone hated me cos I was a New Zealander, marriage had failed, four children who were living my alcoholism with me, older two alternating between looking after me and their siblings and drinking and drugging themselves. My house was the neighbourhood party house and I couldn't not drink, had to drink, drank only at home as couldn't trust my behaviour any more not to mention the blackouts one night called AA, spoke to a sober member who shared some of his story and told me where there was a meeting the next night. Miracle was next day i remembered talking to him and believe me I talked to lots of people on the phone when I was drinking and dint know it til I got the bill. Went to meeting, absolutely terrified: I knew I had to stop drinking but was scared and thought my life was over the people in that room were not only sober but happy about it!and there were some women there who had done the same sorts of things to their children I had done to mine: started going to meetings, couldn't get ":it" for ages, thought maybe if I went for lonj enuf they would tell me the secret. then one day heard someone say "you only have to do it today" suddenly the light came on. I thought when I started going to meetings anyone who hadn't had a drink for 6 weeks was fantastic and here it is 8 years the first year things got worse before they got better eldest left home cos she couldn't drink how she wanted any more youngest went to live with her Dad as she didn't like me suddenly parenting BUT today things are so different I hardly recognise myself My life is manageable with the help of my HP I enjoy my life I stay close to AA and fellowship members I have found these rooms and they help as I live some distance from nearest meeting eldest daughter has 7 years sobriety have remarried just after Christmas this year and the sober alkies at our wedding were the loudest funniest guests there I am so grateful for rooms like this and people like you and the program of AA for all you have given me and I'm selfish enuf not to want to give any back seen what happens if I pick up the first drink so i'll keep coming back to keep what I have and keep giving it away thank you all GA