Marrianne's Story

Hey everyone Marriane alkie here......... you know honestly if i get to live another 40 years i don't think i could give back all that has been given to me from this program I had a few tries at this before this what i hope to be my last time when i was at the end of my drinking career I had a lot of I don't want. I don't want to live,,,,I don't want to die I don't want to drink. I don't want to be sober done so many bad things just didn't want to face things anyhow that last night or morning I called a dear friend who i new was in AA and he had taken me about 5 times before this He got me to my first meeting ....I was still sick,,,,my eyes where bloodshot,,,blood vessels in my face broken I was sick I wanted something , someone to tell me that this hell could stop so he put his elbow in my back when i got to the door and gave me a push. Thank god for him. so i decided that i wanted this so i did this time take suggestions i got a sponsor I surrendered to the simple fact that i my life was totally unmanageable I was in fact an alcoholic so this journey began the best thing i ever did was to read how it works over and over because when i got honest ............and i mean really honest all the chit that kept me wanting to stay high and drunk I got the chance to get rid of it and then the step i took to keep me from going back As a result I am a loving, honest, faithful, trusting Wife, mother, grandmother, Friend and anyone and i mean anyone of you who wants this madness in your life to stop this is the place also i want to thank those of you who got this room started what a lifeline for me Thank you all here who have shared my fears and my cheers with me Without all of you i couldn't have this. This is all of your celebration as well Cause you all loved this alkie until she could love herself

Thank you all for all of this ..............GA