Carol's Story

Hi, my name is Carol an i am an Alcoholic, Lordy let me get my bearings here, first of all i thought next weekend was the 28th, i just came from my sisters house they took her out in the ambulance an all the kids were upset, then i got home an heard this bossy bossy women on my answering machine about the meeting tonite, an how she meant business, my nieces an nephew said she sounds mean LOL i thought all you ppl didn't know how to drink i hated everyone in this room an hated the room i hated the sound of the room when i got here an man i could slam a mean door in a heart beat after i jumped you an told you what i thought LOL but everyone in here, well mostly everyone in here was really loving an carrying an at that point i didn't want what you had but something kept making me come back here then i got a sponsor on here, as i live in a very remote area i even took the extra mile an flew from calif to Mississippi to see my sponsor an work the steps with her OMG that 4-5th step was scary, but i made it harder then it was, an when i did it, what an uplifting experience. had i know in my one year of sobriety i have changed a lot, big time,trust me i bucked hard, an fought this program the hole way, i don't know why though i had a lot of fear of looking at me i didn't like to look at myself an my part in a lot of things but who does i have learned a lot, an have an open heart, an heck i don't jump on ppl i think everyone should be born to work a 12 step program poor sponsor had many bruises, from me bucking, but they say you get your mirror an look who she got LOL i am very grateful to this program an all of you here, an this room, an my Creator and my sponsor, if i didn't have all of that i wont have my 1 yr sobriety, and yes, i still have a lot of problems in every day life that is part of life, it is knowing i can't drink cause it isn't gonna make it any better

thanks everyone GA