Brenda's Story

Hi all Brenda alkie right here!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and so grateful to be here and sober

boy i'm speechless,lololololo

you know I can tell you that i thought it would never happen

I didn't think that i was worth anything but drunken blackouts, and that my life would end that way

and today,i am still in awe of what this design of living does for me, still in awe of the forgiveness that has settled in my heart,in awe of the movement that has taken place inside me

going from who i was to who I am today,is a MIRACLE

it is a miracle that i didn't drink today,and i don't take that for granted

I still rely so much on the rooms of aa
the people of aa the books of aa
because it all leads me to my God that AA gave me
I have a purpose today i have dreams
I have goals and I'm accountable
and some what responsible
I fall short
but not to God

because in the big scheme of things
who really cares other than my family, you, and the people that I have hurt or could hurt, if I stay sober
well what Ive come to know is God
he cares
and he lives everyday
in me to make sure that I stay sober
because he has great plans daily for this recovery girl
and I am excited truely excited
today to be alive and sober

i was a mom, that brought her child in the middle of the night to drug town without thinking twice

i lost custody of him without the state even knowing half of what happened and all that
is all me today
minus the shame
adding forgiveness, hope courage
 and you get a grateful woman, and upstanding sober Brenda today,thanks so much for being here, loving me back to health .ga